it may not be the right time, i may not be the right one...

i try. i try so hard that i can feel my blood boil from frustration. and yet, here i am. lonelier than i have ever been. so upset and very ashamed of what we have conspired within the past couple of days. and the crazy thing about all of this..is that i miss you. or maybe i miss what you used to be. i don't know. like you said, i don't know what i want. and you're right. i don't even know how i feel about us anymore. i just keep hoping and wishing and praying that something, someone can save US. but that's it. why should i have to resort to something other than us? it is apparent that you and i can not be a "we". it's just not the right time... and maybe you're not the right one. but... like the song says... there is something about us. sometimes i wish there wasn't. and as much as you think that i need to calm down and not be so serious.. how can i not when i am seriously in love with god knows what anymore. i'm in love with what we had and you are doing something that leads me to believe that we have a trying chance! i can't do this to myself anymore. nor type away like this.






soo on point. but there is not happy ending on my part.


adeus.