break up to make up

what are you highs and lows?

lows:
-i'm still sick.
-i'm tired of opening the store every day.
-i didn't sell anything :(
-it started raining on my shopping day.

highs:
-the person i mentioned in my previous blog, finally gave me the closure i need to get over my insecurities.
-i brought lunch to work instead of contributing more money to my fast food binge.
-my lung infection is slowly decreasing.
-i haven't smoked for almost about 2 weeks.
-gained mental clarity.


sometimes you need to break up to make up. SIKE. last night though...inexplicable. and i'm saying that in a negative way. thinking that blogging my emotions away would help relieve some tension only contributed to my aggression. i seriously went off the deep end and said many things that i did not mean.

it is funny how when a person is so upset and hurt that they resort to saying irrelevant, rude things to those they feel are patronizing him or her. the person is completely conscious of what they are saying and yet they still feel compelled to say things that are wrong.

well that was all him and i last night. <--is that correct grammar?

good thing is, we finally got over blaming one another and admit to our faults. hopefully the context of the previous blog will be the first and last time to be posted up on here.

soooo, this is day two of my experience with blogging. so far, i feel like an idiot typing all this nonsense. it is similar to how you would feel if someone caught you talking to yourself. and not just any talking, like verbally relaying messages to yourself. i'm talking about full on deep conversation with yourself. wouldn't you feel dumb if someone were to catch you in the act of verbally elating with yourself? well that's how i feel now.

and yet...i like it.

until we meet again.....

adeus.