good lord i was fucked up last night. i never felt so depressed while being drunk. i have to admit though, you have no control over your emotions when you are belligerent and it feels like you're the main character in a drama movie....that consists Jack Daniels and marijuana. it makes you feel important. it makes you feel that all the attention that you are desiring (for some weird reason)is in the palm of your hands. uughhh.. never again.
he brought me lilies. although i strongly believe that flowers will not solve the problem at hand, it does make things feel a little better. especially when i sniff them, and how the scent tickles my senses, i can't help but smile...feel warm inside...fall back in love. i am a sucker for lilies...i am a sucker for him.
i want mashed potatoes.
until we meet again,
adeus.










